
This past couple of years have been extremely hard for me! I've been tested with many trials and luckily I serve an AMAZING God who's mercy endures forever! I HAVE RISEN ABOVE THESE TRIALS AND HAVE OVERCOME THEM!!!! He has helped me accept the things that I cannot change and change the things that I can. I have had many people/ things taken out of my life recently and it's been a very very hard adjustment for me. However, the doors that have closed were closed for a reason. But God definitely knows what he is doing. Because MANY more doors have opened up that have been awesome, and I know it will only continue. Ive lost friends only to gain others. There is a reason for everything. There are reason why people are brought into your life and don't stay forever. Maybe they were there to help you through a hard time, listening ear, or just for comfort. BUT if they don't make it to my present or future then there is a reason why. Still doesnt make it easy, but if that is what is suppose to be then I have to accept it. For the longest time I have been trying to figure out the "WHY" question. I can't ask why anymore, its been driving me crazy going from one scenario to another wondering if I would have done something diff would it change the way things are now. Was I not a good enough friend, did I not do enough, Love enough....etc. Those are things that have been weighing on my heart and I am doing my best to rise above it with God's strength. It is not an easy battle, but God never said it would be easy, He just said we wouldnt have to go through it alone, whether that be Him bringing people into your lives to help you get past it, giving you the wisdom and knowledge to know what the next step is and to give you the strength to take it. I have been blaming myself for too long now and I have to stop. God is healing my heart and mending friendships and showing me the next step in His plan for my life. I have never lost so much at one time in my life! It broke me and my spirit, but God is healing my emotions and my heart. He is helping me to not be angry anymore and accept the way things are and that I can't change them. All I can do now is press on towards the future, focus on my amazing daughter, health, teaching and continuing to try and be the best friend that I can be to the people that mean the world to me. You cant think you are weak just because you need support. Ive thought that for awhile but God showed me that it doesnt make you weak, it proves your human and you need people in your life who can HELP you, not do it FOR YOU, but be there for support and to just let you know they care and are here for you. I have an amazing group of friends and cannot thank them enough for sticking by me in my hardest times! God is an amazing God and Im pressing on!!!!
This is something I read everyday! Its out of Joel Osteen's Scriptures and Meditations book
"Letting Go"
Quit comparing your life to someone else's, and quit dwelling on what could or should have been. Quit asking questions such as, "Why this?" or "Why that?" or "Why me?" Let go of those hurts and pains. Forgive the people who did you wrong. Forgive yourself for the mistakes you've made.
Today can be a NEW beginning!
Have a great Wednesday!